It's time to bid farewell.

Started this blog in English, so I guess it should end in the same way.

1..2...3....4.....9.....15. There are totally 15 out of 75 posts I wrote is all about someone . Today, the last post, which is also the 16th post dedicated to someone. Someone I once so darn obsessed with, someone once so cute, someone once so charming, the once immaculate one.

Well, didn't pluck up my courage to confess doesn't mean my love towards someone was doubtful, It wasn't, I was very clear about how I felt. How sweet it was every time you took a look at me, and how the air turned electricity the moment you smiled, how you drove me crazy, turned me a “flower idiot”. I shall never forget this.

Perhaps you don't know how I feel toward you, or perhaps you actually do. Which I think the fact is more of the latter. Anyway, it no longer matters. For I have already accepted the fact, we're of two completely different world. It was hard at first, was very reconciled to the fact that our gap isn't only big, but hugely vast. I tried, I tried to stay nearer, I tried to be a little aggressive, I tried to offer when you're in need, as in the sticking-plaster, remember? But, well, things obviously didn't work out in the end. No matter how hard we tried, oil and water will seperate eventually, don't they?

I might be a very filthy, sex-minded, lecherous guy in front of you all. I know. It's up to you to see me this way. What I can tell, seriously, I'm very clear and I know what love matter is all about. And that's exactly why I'm still silent about someone even up to now. The reason is harsh, but a fact it is that other than you being sexually appealing to me, we have nothing else in common. The way we communicate, the way I'm treated, the way.. everything. It seemed like I'm in love with someone who doesn't bother to give me a shit, not even as what a friend would do. That's what I felt. So the relationship is certainly not going to work out, well, even it does I'm very sure it ends in no time eventually. Subsequently, guilt, loneliness and self-condemnation are what left. I know it.

Because a couple it not all about its initial motive (as in sex)... Plain feeling is not everything, for we are talking about relationship between two individuals.

A successful relationship requires not only passion towards each other, it's more of how the two interact, how much they share in common, how willingly the two work for each other, how tolerable the two are, and most importantly...

fate... the paramount element indeed, isn't it?

I know part of my heart is always spaced for you, I too know... perhaps I'm just of no match, and our destiny is always not to be close together, in all ways.

Qlek's closing down. Thank you everybody who showed your support in the past, especially Siew Siew. love to moderate your comments, I know I am not alone whenever I see them. ;)

Sayonara.

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